Tuesday, September 27, 2011

the lizardman made me do it.. making sense of our weirdest encounters

      I like to talk about my psychedelic experiences. I find that by trying to talk about them with others, especially people who have not had the experience, I am very aware of not sounding totally deranged; and the effort this entails seems to help me convince myself. By contextualising it for wider consumption, it seems to allow me to gain deeper insight into the possible meaning of the experiences themselves; and to integrate these lessons into my weltanschauung.
      The method I favour is to establish myself as a credible person over quite a long period of time; and then casually slip into the conversation something along the lines of,' Have you ever had an out of body experience?'; I can then launch into the tale of my experiences out of the body, and decide on a case by case basis whether or not to mention the ingestion of lsd as the catalyst. I am constantly amazed at the positive responses I recieve from people when I let them in on my deepest darkest secrets. People are hungry for information from psychonauts, they are sick of the taboo on sharing these experiences. This blog seeks to redress this situation.
       For the moment, I think I will focus on the content and narrative structure of the experiences themselves, and leave the actual nuts and bolts of what was taken and how for possible investigation at a later point in time. So, as usual, kudos to Chris Knowles at the secretsun, the impetus for this post comes from a comment in a thread at his facebook page.
      As I blow the last vestiges of smoke from my lungs, I lean back and surrender to the process.Whoa! this is serious, I am being fairly rapidly transported through the familiar sequence of neon geometry coalescing into the chrysanthenum shape, which seems to mark a doorway or portal to the landscapes the chemistry of my brain is unlocking, I am in the stained glass dome of the cathedral where I have been, previously. My expectation of physical bliss and a light show is soon forgotten as I am shot out of this space, more portal type imagery, and find myself on another planet, I am in the presence of others, and I seem to be underground. Getting my bearings, I realise that I am in a mine. That praying mantis creature over there is mining 'spice', the same spice i used to get here, and that very martial looking lizardman is guarding him, or the 'spice' which is universally valuable. We all get over the shock of being aware of each others appearance. Even though we are aware of the conscious presence of each other, accompanied by visual data, it is like remote viewing in a sense, there is no concern of physical interaction. From what I gather, the lizardman is about as low on the totem pole as it is possible to be in a vast colonial empire of warrior merchants. In my only other encounter with a 'reptilian', he was resplendent in a gleaming light body, these guys are more flesh and blood, boots and leather. The praying mantis on the other hand is just that; he stands on hind legs, similar in size to the lizardman. From the lizards perspective, the mantis is a slave, useful for the ability to locate and process the 'spice', the sole reason for their presence on this denuded rock at the arse end of the universe. But the mantis seems to take a bigger picture view of things, and allows the current situation to exist as it suits his secretive purpose.
    
 At this point in time, I am pretty well able to bi-locate from the spice mine to my lounge room by opening and closing my eyes. I get up and change the music, which along with the itunes images is really bizarre and definitely in some kind of feedback loop with the consciousness of my friend, who is totally passed out, and I. I sit down, have another pipe and close my eyes. I am right back at the spice mine, where the lizardman seems amused with me, I am rather abruptly transported to the void. I become aware of another, obviously senior lizardman. We are not at the mine, although I know that he is the big lizardman there. We are in the void. The lizardman is performing a set of martial arts moves, with a two handed curved sword\blade. And he is putting on a bit of a show. Then he starts communicating to me how he is from a superior race, with a culture stretching back millions of years. That we are created by them, to generate the cerebro spinal fluid which contains their consciously created reality. This is quite a chunk to take in, and i get to thinking, what is so scary that these guys need to hide from it in there. At which point the sword starts to communicate with me. The edge of the blade of the lizardmans sword is decorated(?) with a precious metal, which glows blue and is intelligent. It explains that it is the real intelligence and the cultural driver behind the reptilian civilisation. It is magnificent to behold. Meanwhile back in the void, the chief lizardman has finished his exercises, and aware of the fact that I have been communicated to by the metal, is keen to demonstrate his prowess, and the union of sword and soldier that will occur when he draws that sword. As he draws the sword I realise that if he draws it, he must kill with it before he can sheath it. I let him know that a demonstration is definitely out of the question, I thought I could not be responsible for a death of a being just for my titillation. This caused him to scoff at me for being such a pussy; and the experience was pretty well over instantaneously. I will admit to regret over my intervention, I think that I may well have squibbed on the oppurtunity to learn a deep lesson about myself because of a persona mask I choose to identify with in the here and now. And so it goes.   
      Until today, I hadn't given this experience a whole lot of thought. It was by no means a typical experience for that point in time. It had elements of the more regular experience, but seemed to launch into different territory. Without getting too bogged down in technical details, the form of 'spice' we were using is virtually impossible to determine dose and purity, a real case of suck it and see. Today, when I mentioned it on facebook, it seemed to be fairly obvious that the lizardmen were representational of my left brain, linear, rational side; whilst the hive minded mantis represented the right brain, chaotic, intuitive side. According to google:
"An appearance from the mantis is a message to be still, go within, meditate, get quite and reach a place of calm. It may also a sign for you to be more mindful of the choices you are making and confirm that these choices are congruent. "
        Which does make sense. This experience happened about five years ago, and i have been hit with the meditation instruction fairly consistently over that time as well as a 'stop smoking' instruction. Both of which I have failed to make a serious concerted effort to comply with. I think you could be forgiven for interpreting the story as a meta narrative for what i was trying to achieve with the entheogen. I was using my left brained cultural imperialist, as a means to violently force the right brained keeper of the secrets to give up the prize I had failed to earn. That this sort of behaviour could have unforeseen consequences in my life and that I should proceed with caution. That is the interpretation that jumped out at me today. It is never just one thing, and is always relative to the perspective it is viewed from.
.      Google had this to say with respect to the lizards:
"If you are in contact with reptile animal totems on any kind, tune into the message they are trying to convey to you. Very often, the message reveals hints about dealing with difficult situations (adaptation) – and doing so wisely, while still maintaining integrity. Also, the message might also relate to a matter of independence – a reminder to not be a slave to your external conditions – and realizing that internal changes will truly set you free. " Fair enough.
      A C.G.Jung quote was put up in response to the summarised version of the story, which was particularly apt I thought.  "The shadow is a moral problem that challenges the whole ego-personality, for no one can become conscious of the shadow without considerable moral effort. To become conscious of it involves recognizing the dark aspects of the personality as present and real. This act is the essential condition for any kind of self-knowledge."

"If you imagine someone who is brave enough to withdraw all his projections, then you get an individual who is conscious of a pretty thick shadow. Such a man has saddled himself with new problems and conflicts. He has become a serious problem to himself, as he is now unable to say that they do this or that, they are wrong, and they must be fought against. He lives in the "House of the Gathering." Such a man knows that whatever is wrong in the world is in himself, and if he only learns to deal with his own shadow he has done something real for the world. He has succeeded in shouldering at least an infinitesimal part of the gigantic, unsolved social problems of our day."

"Taking it in its deepest sense, the shadow is the invisible saurian tail that man still drags behind him. Carefully amputated, it becomes the healing serpent of the mysteries." Enough said.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

astro-gnostic musings on a secret sun

I have just written an extremely long comment on the 'secret sun' blogspot and i have decided to post it here. Who knows? (apart from the shadow-cause he ain't talking) it might lead to movement at the station.


I would like to respond to some of the comments from part 2.hope that isn't regarded as off topic
About twelve months ago, I read an article by Jay Weidner in 'New Dawn' in which he laid out his kubrick/moon landing thesis, with particular emphasis on the technical methods Kubrick employed/invented to achieve the desired effects. The article details the tell tale signs the methods left, allowing Weidner ( as well as Hoagland and others ) to reverse engineer the photos and underpin the thesis that the photos were created on earth, whilst acknowledging that man may well have been to the moon. Making the photos, and their source the focus, rather than NASA , Nazis and the NWO.
The next night on television (sbs australia), I stumbled across the French made mockumentary 'The Dark Side of the Moon' which I knew nothing about at the time.
At face value it would appear to be a dislcosure type documentary, confirming virtually all the aspects of Jays thesis, and told from the perspective of the conspirators themselves in their own words. The cast consisting of heavy hitters like Henry Kissinger, little Donny Rumsfeld, Alexander Haig et al being interviewed about, and spilling all the details of the operation to have Stanley Kubrick produce film and photos of a moon landing, from a terrestrial studio, which could be used to dupe John Q Public. Kubricks widow and assisstants also appear, lending further credibility to movie. Which is mind bogglingly, jaw droppingly credible ( is this really happening, am I dreaming)until the end credits roll and we are let in on the joke via bloopers and footage showing the cast rehearsing and reading from and joking about the script. An elaborate joke at the expense of the 'lunatic fringe'. I was gutted. I looked around to make sure no one had seen that I had been so thoroughly taken in. After the movie was referenced in the comments section, I found a copy in google video. Unfortunately it seems to be only the first half of the film, although it includes the all important end credit sequence.http://video.google.com/googleplayer.swf?docid=2304895215368202642&hl=en&fs=true style=width:400px;height:326px allowFullScreen=true allowScriptAccess=always type=application/x-shockwave-flash
I can't recommend this enough to secret sunworshippers. Not just for what it means re weidner et als theorys. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0344160/ gives a full list of the power players involved as well as the Kubrick camp insiders. These two groups seem to overlap considerably. The makers of the documentary, or their producers, were able to access some of the most powerful men on earth, convince them to go along with an elaborate multi level joke; because they are so well known as jolly japesters. Front man for the NWO/Illuminati Corp is just their day job. They really do display considerable acting chops, which probably should not come as any great surprise.
Which leads me to see incredible parallels between the Weidner hypothesis and what can be reasonably inferred from the mockumentary and its cast. Self referential movies telling stories symbolically; now its a matter of discerning just what story is being symbolically told, by whom and to what end. Could the symbolic story actually be a meta-story version of the 'face value' narrative ? I would also like to hear from jay re 'Dark Side of the Moon', which was made in 2002. Could it have been a preemptive strike to discredit the thesis before it became more widely disseminated ? Whatever, but whoever made it had unprecedented access to the power elite; pisstake or not. Is it too late for a spoiler alert.
Raj when you mention “... manipulate the building blocks on which perception is based..” I think you are hitting the nail square on the head. (no masonic pun intended).
I agree with your thoughts re kubricks 'bone picking agenda', but I also think that the masters of the universe enjoy and encourage the resistance of their 'chosen tool'; it keeps the psychological turmoil alive through self conflict. Allowing one access to ones dreams,if only you are prepared to 'do a little favour'. Quid pro quo, in a manner of speaking.
The 'psychedelic experience', is always a subject fraught with difficulty; probably due to the personal and subjective nature of the experience.( we all think we own and understand it uniquely). But I always think its worth trying to define what we mean in an attempt to clarify. I feel there are two distinct types of , or expressions of 'tripping' ( which I believe are easily and often confused when talking about the experience; but never when having it). Those where the ego structure remains intact, and those where the trippers ego structure is dissolved/shattered; the so called 'ego death'. Where the experiencer ceases to be; and if they are lucky ( notwithstanding the lottery like nature of 'set', 'setting', 'dose' and 'purity') become aware of everything, all at once, a cosmic consciousness encounter. I am very interested in the notion that when using the psychedelic substances to facilitate the 'ego death'; they act as a catalyst to trigger a mechanism in our brains which leads to a classic 'mystical experience', 'kundalini activation' etc. which is endogenous in nature. See William James variety of religious experience. The fact that such similar experiences can be derived from such different first principles,i.e. Near death exp , out of body experience, fever/dream/hallucination, religious experience, dare I say it 'abduction experience; it is easy to fall into a bias towards whichever form of the experience we may have been priveleged to ( I was going to say 'experience' but if I use that word one more time in this paragraph my computer will explode).
Anony 12:49 whilst I suspect that we are talking about two different categories of psychedelic experience, I think you nailed it with regards the ' shitty nature meme'. Quite a few references to shitty times recently and whilst I concur , I would like to clarify. We are talking about society, culture, civilisation; not the mystery that is life. The fact that life can be hard,boring etc. in no way detracts from the experience of the opposite (upside) attitudes emotions feelings etc. in fact they add necessary contrast to allow full appreciation. Your last paragraph is very interesting , along with the expression of personal psychedelic experiences , it is somewhat of a taboo subject. Sticking to the open minded skepticism which has served so well; if we are going to entertain the notion of a corrupt and evil elite ( not exactly a new concept, “...wickedness in high places...” and some gnostic themes); then surely we must at least consider that 'they' could be the good guys (bhoddisattvas?); guiding us through a life experience. The secrecy being necessary in order to protect us from knowing ( gnoing), before we have been adequately prepared (initiated?.. I knew there was a point to this rave that would tie back to a secretsun theme) ; and the exact analogy applies to using drugs to facilitate (force) a mystical/cosmic experience , which can be extremely dangerous. Knowledge
without initiation resulting in a premature gnosis ; making it difficult to live the life we have come all this way to do, in an authentic manner. As always when discussing entheogens, a warning and disclaimer is necessary. I would like to share a couplet from a song lyric I wrote 25 years ago whilst trying to process my own self initiated (premature) gnosis.
    • i've been where the giraffe sleeps, and i'll go there again,
      i don't recall how I got here, but i remember when.
      i went swimming in the mirror, i swam way too fast.,
      now its not safe inside my head, its full of broken glass.
{p.s. Alan green – check it out ; a fucking giraffe dude}
Sorry to rave on ( and on & on),but it is such a pleasure to participate in , or just partake of,
the erudite comment section of the secret sun . Where a diversity of opinion and experience can be put forward in a supportive and non hostile environment . I have remarked here previously, when discussing 'psych(o)delic experiences' that the secretsun (ss) gives me/us Access to the multi dimensional entity that is the realm of the subconscious mind without the inherent dangers of drug use. A much safer route( way, tao) to informed gnosis.
Cheers to Chris Knowles, his blog, and its commenters – who rarely fail to educate and prepare me. Regards,
dboy
p.s.- I have always found your posts on Initiation to be entertaining and enlightening ( a rare combination unfortunately), and I would love to see you revisit the topic with your less frequent but
in depth reviews of some of the secret suns dominant themes. I think that the extra time between posts seems to allow the comments to get in depth and develop, I like that. I have been alleviating my secretsun jones at facebook, but I prefer this format completely. I guess I am officially old.